what could have been…and what will be
As a child I grew up hearing my mom say, “Well I could have become this or done that……but instead I became a mom.”
My mother put off her dreams indefinitely when she had kids…and I never realized it until this summer.
Why? Because this summer my husband and I passed our adoption home study.
That’s right…..we are qualified to be parents and have the paperwork to prove it!
While we wait to become parents, out of nowhere a drum beat started inside of me.
…..there’s a baby comin’….. there’s a baby comin’ …..there’s a baby comin’…..
It challenged me like nothing else has ever challenged me before.
I thought of all that I want to be.
All that I want to do.
And then….”Well I guess I’ll never get to do them….because I’m gonna be a Mom instead.”
WHAT?!?!
< Cue screeching break sound >
Thankfully, as soon as that thought came into my head, I realized how wrong it is.
And that if I believed that thought, and acted as if it was true, I would become a shell of who I was meant to be.
I refuse to do that to our children!
So I started asking myself….What kind of mom do I want them to see?
Someone filled with regrets? No!
Someone pursuing their dreams and accomplishing great things? Yes!
And if I want to do those things when I become a mother,
what am I waiting for?
I want to empower our children to pursue their dreams.
How can I do that if I’m not also pursuing my dreams?
And that’s how I ended up here. Starting this blog, expanding my business to include online courses, and challenging myself to write and share original music.
Am I totally petrified most of the time? Yes!
Do I have any regrets? No.
This is where I’m meant to be…and I’m excited to see where it goes!
